things are really hard for me, to be honest. I can’t even begin to understand why in the hell I’m feeling so bipolar lately. I can’t self diagnose myself because I’m a fucking teenager and everyone says it’s the hormones. how to explain that you can’t control your emotions ever..

ch-ords:

Maneater // Nelly Furtado

Maneater, make you work hard
Make you spend hard
Make you want all, of her love

eh, so/so. I’ve been better. How about you? 

It’s not like I ever can anyways. 

anything. just distract me.

theyoungmanicdepressive:

It’s been 4 years since I found out I was Bipolar. It was really hard at first. I’ve gotten a lot more used to it since then but lately have been having a lot of trouble again. My head just can’t stop thinking. I just can’t. I’ve been laying down on my bed for hours but can’t sleep. In these 4…

cuntradicktions:

i miss being 10 years old and thinking i was going to grow up to be avril lavigne

I always accidentally catch myself all tense in the shoulders and chest. Like, my guard is always up, even when I’m in a locked room and there’s no other way to get in except for that door. Even when I feel safe, my guard is up, my shoulders are tense, and my breathing is heavy.